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Archive for January, 2012

Reaching for the light.

Solstice , Christmas and New Years was particularly Abundant , Social and Sacred this past year. It is a whole tale in it self.  Suffice to say that as usual we had our share of shared meals , treats, sweet and rich foods drinks and all.

Come January I found my self feeling greasy,  gassy and kinda gross how ever sacred  the times I experienced. I was urging to cleanse.  Not quite ready to let go of time to contemplate and mull on ideas plans and visions that seem to swivel around  and sometimes  hurl towards me in the ether . Wooo!  Hold off.  Give me a moment .  Let me digest!  Literally and figuratively.

It  felt to cold and damp to go ahead with a cleanse per se.  I had been ignoring a chest cold for maybe 4 weeks and all of a sudden I needed to take care of it NOW or I knew it would get really bad.  I followed my craving towards bulking up on greens. Lots of greens  and vegetable, and grains. Quinoa, Rice , Barley. I discovered Chia seeds!   Big salads and warming soups. An aversion to the yummy rich and sweet foods that just days ago were so delicious and nourishing.  I needed herbal teas generously spiced with ginger and cayenne.  Herbal chai by the pot steeping away for days until gone.  My kombucha love got rekindled and a daily regime…ahhhh. An interesting balance of cooling and alkaline foods heated up with warming spices to move the mucous, the stagnancy out of my body.

I realise looking back that I have integrated some of the Ayurvedic attitudes that I learned last year.  I have only barely touched the surface of the depth of knowledge that the Ayurvedic tradition have to share. I am deeply intrigued and love the holistic view of  health and our connection to the world.

I did not consciously think Ayurveda besides the habitual check of my tongue. At the back of my mind I noticed excess mucous and lethargy and  a heavy mood and a dislike of cold , excess Kapha most of all. I needed to lighten up  and to move stuff , Vata, and also to warm up and stimulate digestion on all levels, Pitta

 I saw my self  emerge with  violent coughs and  mucus exiting my lungs in projectile style and  a lighter mood and not to mention a much more active mind. Oh my there is so much to do.  Wooo!!!  Aces seemed to lift and my body to soften. I felt like a sprout bursting through on a cheat spring day ready to burst forth in too full bloom.  I was  gravitating towards  slow and deep yoga posses, in particular the heart, lung  and hip openers and deep shoulder neck work.

I also discovered the miracle balls and used them to aid in the deep opening to the point of feeling like I’ve gotten a killer Tahi-massage the next day. I love them and highly recommend getting them for self massage and  deep yet gentle muscle work.

Suddenly I  felt very emotional.

Alas I caught sight of my collage in process.  Uhhhh!  Maybe there is more that need to incubate in the in the fertile depths.  Maybe  there is something to realise or to let go of  before I am really ready to spring forth towards full bloom . I realised this looking at my unfinished collage and  the daunting feeling thinking of finishing it.  That feeling a hint that I better get to work on that. Complete that image so that the process may be carried through.  Real or imagined it is suddenly  of great importance to my emotional wellbeing that I finish that project and I am internally cussing at the fact that I have decided to create a fairly large collage made up of little tiny pieces of paper and cuttings.

Following the lightness, elation and  physical cleanse not to mention the softening, the emotions  arise. Ughhhh . Discomfort. Urge to retreat and eat  greasy comfort foods again . …not notice …basically  run . Run from my self.  Being with this whilst going about my everyday life… letting  it rise and fall. Trying to not let it spill on the children, animals or lovely ladies of the household.  Succeeding most of the time.  Having good cries in the shower. On walks. In bed. Also laughs and giggles and spurts of  pure joy.  Fear of all the new,  of   faliure and maybe even of success.  Old thought and feeling patterns surfaced and went on repeat. Some called  for reassessment and pondering others I caught and had to re-remember that they hold no truth anymore.  They are no more but an habitual neuropathway that I have to give my self credit for is getting much less traffic that it used to.

So the month of January passed and the collage is not yet done. The cough is almost gone. I am still enjoying eating much lighter and alkaline most of the time. Lots of herbal teas. I feel lighter as well  as  more supple  on all levels. I’m not done taking advantage of time to nurture and source from deep within. It is going to be a busy year. I may as well savour this in-between time and by the end of February my guess is that the collage is done as well as the ground in the garden prepped for the early seeds and plants to be planted. All in its own time.


The Beginning…

2011 ended beautifully with the realisation of moving to the long envisioned farm with a little group of passionate women and children. Not to mention our dogs and cats and more ideas and inspiration than we know what to do with but to pace ourselves and allow everything to unfold one thing at the time. To know that what ever we chose to do we are chosing to do because we are called to and out of pleasure and wanting to. I  foresee that we will be working hard but that it will be infused with great joy, most of the time. That we will learn  much and need to research and learn from those  with complementing skills who are willing to share. That we will collaborate with varied and wonderful people. That we will be clumsy and make mistakes that we will have to laugh at and heed the lesson from. That we will need to take deep breaths and practice embodied honest communication, a lot.  The land is so beautiful, ripe with possibilities and full of magic and nurture. It was a sudden move and it is amusing that I at first refused the gift. A curious lesson in allowing the universe to work its ways and not be to hung up on the particularities or the gift may pass you by. Or me as it was. Much came to pass in 2011. So much actually that this year very much starts of with a real almost intimidating sence of a new slate. Landmarks of visions reached makes 2012 a truly fresh canvas from which to create, co-create and elaborate visions to come.  Old ways fell aside and I know not yet of the new but that they will be  very different. I was privileged to have  time the last few weeks of the year to truly savor the gratitude and magnitude of accomplishments and the blessings that came my way.  To honor the richness of old and new relations.

I feel the fierce force of change this new year of the Dragon and 2012 can bring.  The challenge to move forward and simultaneously thoroughly honor and savour the present precious moment.

I wish to take advantage of this ripe time and call in and co-create community centred around truly wholesome and sustainable  living and co-relating to one-another and all there is.  Gently and in stages, honoring every step. How ever humble I want to make a positive contribution to this world and the times we live in and my personal challenge is to step into my power and share the knowledge and the gift that is mine.

New years Blessings.

Here is to stepping into our power!