The Pulse of Life
This last week I have acutely felt the pull of two seemingly opposing calls.
I have come to recognize them as the yearning of the soul and the yearning of the Spirit. So different in character. The pull in opposite directions.
The inward creative pull of “let me just finnish that Collage in peace”. Do not interrupt me. Let me dream and let the unconscious roam free to sort itself out. A complete absence of desire to fulfill household or professional obligations , you get the drift….
On the other hand I am restless and stressed and anxious to burst forward in the garden. (In fact I have visions of the garden 5 or 10 years from now.) Burst forward in my professional life. In my personal life. In life in general. Incredibly impatient that I am not moving forward fast enough with the studio so I can start receiving clients. I wanna travel. Make a difference. Make lots of money. Do more. Be more. Cultivate a strong and vigorous practice to raise my fire and purifie and be clear and vast as the sky.
The Dance of Shiva and Shakti.
Or rather the pulse. I contract. I expand. I exhale. I inhale.
In true pisces manner I acutely feel the pull in both directions simultaneously.
I need both and the season is such. Light is bursting forth. Flowers push through the ground and blossom. Dogs are in heat. The sun is warm. Hummingbirds dance in mating ecstasy.
Yet it is the earliest blossoms. The warm days take turn with the cold. Soo much is still hibernating and incubating. It is early spring!
In the middle of these pulls of the downward and upward I live Life Manifested.
What practices will nurture and ground me and simultaneously help me rise with the energies and go forth in the world bringing into light that which is what I have to share with the world.
I power nurture when I can . Naps are sacred for me. It is no lie. I love naps and they are one of the most luxurious gift I give and allow myself in this busy life. It is pure self love. Luxurious baths that include face masks. Followed by rich oils and luxurious scents. Permission to sit with emotions and let things percolate before acting or reacting. I rest in nature. I walk slowly. I savour. I Sit
To honor the call of the spirit I Vision. I Dream and Fantasize and feel into what really tick my heart and this is the gage by which i choose direction. I climb high to get a view. I move faster so my breath deepens and joy bursts through my veins.I sing.
I practice yoga curling up into a ball and the stretching as far as I can. Furling and curling and reaching and stretching. Closing and opening.
Inhaling and exhaling.
I enact the pulse to experience the comfort and acceptance in all the places of this sacred dance.
Or notice the disomfort and play with it.
Somewhere between the soul and the spirit is life as is, Mateialised. I have the privilige to be here on earth. In this body. Bound somewhat by time and space.
I commit to use the nourishment I draw from the depth of my soul and the clarity and vision I source from my spirit and do always something, every moment that bring into being that which is most me. That which is my gift to the world.
It is so damn intimidating as my visions are vast and bold and simultaneously so very ordinary.
I have no meassure but my own to what is enough or …not.
There are days where it seem I do so little because I am just going about being me doing what needs to be done. There are even days it seem I spend more and more time undoing than doing ( but that is a whole nother story) .
That is just it. Of course it is enough! It is enough to be ourselves to the extent that we are able to be at any given time. If we allow ourselves to delve into the depths of the soul. Explore the visions of the spirit. Commit to doing what we can to work towards bringing this into manifestation. Then we are doing precisely what we are ment to. What else can we do or be.
So in the midst of this dance of life …where ever we are at. Let us trust that it is all right. That inhale will follow exhale untill it does not anymore. Let us not waste any time or energy trying to be anything we are not. Rest deep into the knowing and allowing that we are enough. Even let go of the notion that we today should be like yesterday or even like just a moment ago. Discovering every moment Who am I.
Inhale. What are my needs. What am I wiling to receive from the world.
Exhale. What can I release. What is my gift to this moment.
Lets journey together into this space of ever unfolding self discovery.
By the mere fact of being we are bringing an expression to the world that otherwise would be lost. At times this will be in an active expression as us Doing in the world. At others it is in the mere Being in the world. One is not more worthy than the other. Only we each will know when it is time for one or the other. Trust this knowing. Stay close to your selves and take pleasure in this guidance. Be the most yourself you can possible be.
This is your gift
(By the way I adore the Dance in Guidance)
Lets Dance …if nothing else …lets just Dance.