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Karma Yoga-Broom pulling in the Highlands

Postponed to Sunday May 1. Same time Same Place . Please remember to email to confirm attendance!

~Combining mindfulness and action. Meditation with physical honoring of the land we live on. Prayer in doing. Love lived! ♥
~Come connect to nature and your self in community! Come and honor the wild woods that nourish our souls so freely and deeply by giving back to nature by caring for it?

Sunday April 24 2-5pm

1201 Millstream rd.

~Every week I walk in these beautiful woods by my home and end up at sunset on the bluff in Hazlit Creek Park. It is a beautiful wild and varied forest and in spring we see many rare and precious flowers and it is teeming with wildlife. Here and there invasive species budge their way in threatening to take over in place of the variety of the wild flora and fauna.

~Here on the bluffs it is Scotch Broom that, though I and others pull them on our regular walks, persistently grow and grow and grow.

~I love these bluffs with the arbutus, the firs, the pine, the many kinds of rare and wild flowers, oregon grape and nootka rose etc etc etc. Raven. Deer. Hummingbird. And the illusive predators. It really is a sacred place!

~With the love that I feel for the woods I want to honor the native ecology and the land by removing as much as possible of the Scotch Broom. The more we are the easier it will be.
Right now is a perfect time as they are pre-bloom and many of them are small and so relatively easy to pull out by their roots.
I believe that Arbutus will be in bloom at this time too and we will be working enveloped in the sweet honey scent off their flowers.

~We will gather and do a walking meditation form our home up to the Arbutus bluff in Hazlit Creek park. After a meditation on the bluff we will spend some time clearing the bluffs of the invasive scotch broom to begin restoring the area to its natural ecosystem.
~We will end with breaking the silence and a potluck style picnic and tea savoring this little amazing place on earth.
~Bring walking shoes and layered clothing. Water and perhaps a snack. Please bring your own cup for tea. Gardening gloves and if you have, gardening shears, for the big and stubborn plants.
A treat or a finger snack for the picnic if inspired.
A blanket to sit on.

~The walk is fairly easy and no more than 10 minutes but does go up hill and on forest trails. The pulling of the broom is fairly easy as long as one uses two hands and mindfulness of body and posture and/or tools when the plant is too big. Much of the time will be spent in silence to facilitate meditation , mindfulness and connection.
♡ Please email Pernille to let her know you want to attend and so she can give more detailed directions closer to the event
No charge

ps. We will be ending with plenty of time for further hikes or even a climb up Lone Tree Hill for sunset.


In search for Peace I had to sit with Grief

I joined Deva Premals and Miten 21 day chanting challenge.

I was fortunate enough to see these guys  when they visited Victoria and it was  such a beautiful and inspiring experience. I love their down to earth and reachable approach to a deep and  spiritual life and how freely they share what the journey of the mantras have given them.

 After a beautiful yoga practice in the sun on the deck surrounded by my dogs and the eager hummingbirds buzzing by the feeder I listened in to their day two of the meditations. Today’s mantra was Om Shanti Om and it is the mantra of Peace that we chanted 108 times.  Beautiful and simple. As we came to an end  I sat there, still, feeling very  quiet. Vibrating with  energy but calm…. a smile tickling my lips …. I felt very present in my body and simultaneously not in my body.  Then I noted a sensation that I almost missed , actually  I did for a little while. A cry welling up . I kind of dodged it ever so subtle. I reached for the bliss the beautiful peace. Then my practice of inquiry awoke and gently curious I turned my awareness to that sensation that I almost decided to re-stuff into my unconscious and merely noted… I feel like crying .

 I could not tell if it was  a cry of the unbearable beauty of this incredible beautiful sense of connection and peace or of the grief of  life lived disconnected from this or something entirely different. I totally surrendered to sit there and  allow the feeling to well up. I just let is emerge  just like that allowing the tears the sounds and the feelings  course through me. Tears streaming. Whimpering . Sobbing. Simultaneously beautiful and painful and  I put judgment and analyzing aside and just allowed the feeling to express itself. After some time it passed. As sudden as it emerged the cry subsided. I now entered an even deeper place of peace and stillness simultaneously one with all within and around me and not at all. Breathing in . Breathing out. Present. Still. Vibrant . Eternal . One of these states that really can not be described with words . I just rested there till that  also passed and I with the breath returned  to this body and this world. I opened my eyes and in gratitude dedicated this  feeling of connection and peace to all beings.

Returning to the mind it made me realize how in our search for bringing what we desire into our world we will undoubtedly encounter precisely that which is in our way of experiencing this. So in searching for  for example Peace any emotion or belief system we have held in our body-mind that stand in our way of experiencing this may arise and have the opportunity to be expressed and released.  It takes courage to let these uncomfortable  emotions arise and it can be easy to miss or dismiss them. Know and trust that if any emotions or belief system arise it is because you are ready and able to deal with what is coming up. This  is a beautiful opportunity to permit something we before  suppressed to be allowed its full expression. In dealing  with these emotions I do not mean taking any action but rather to just allow its arising emergence and sit with and feel the emotion through its full expression.   It can be intense and sounds and movement can be involved. Do you best to stay really present and observe the emotions natural life cycle . It has as all other things a beginning a middle and an end and when it is fully expressed for now it will fade away. On the other side thorough your emotion you may just find that which you came searching for.  So pay attention in your search also to that which seem contrary to what you want to bring into your life. Trust that what comes up for you is your perfect medicine for where you are at right now. If today you do not “get”  there  do not despair or get discouraged . Sitting with  what comes up when it comes up is an act of GREAT courage.

 The journey IS the destination!

By the way I think you can still join Deva Premal and Mitens 21 day mantra meditation challenge. I recommend it if you are curious about chanting and Mantras or if you need some inspiration and encouragement for a daily practice.

Enjoy. Namaste




To be your self.

This little note was posted on an acupuncturist board and as my tense shoulders relaxed I could very much relate.

Living off-line

Summer has pulled me deeply into the present. With the children at home, summer activities that will become childhood memories, several personal journeys in circles of women and elders that heal and propel me and everyday life and work as well. The present is full and every moment brilliant and clear.  It amazes me how rich life is and how tired I am every midweek come Wednesday, just ask my children.  How blessed I feel that the brilliance of the moment in this time of my life is from pleasure and joy and a feeling of being on track in the midst of life with all its imperfection. Rather than the acuity of crisis that can create a similar precise awareness of what matters most.  I am well aware what a blessing this is.

In the morning before the heat of the sweltering hot days I have felt the breath of fall in the distance and with that rising of inspiration and aspiration and urges to make art working in the back of my awareness. Though lazy in the heat now an excitement is building for what is to come what is to be created and the comfort of routine that will be and the relief of changing weathers and the purifying rains.

Not yet though … not at all. I still savor every moment of heat, the bounty of harvest and the business it creates in preserving this abundance for cooler scarcer times.  I go along still present to the present in haste taking note to the flashes of inspiration that comes so as to pick it up again when time is ripe for this.

Tills then I will be scarcely present here and I  pray you will forgive me.

May we all be Well

May we all be Happy.

May we all  be Healthy.

May we all be at Peace.

Much light


A thought about sleep.

The theme of sleep has been on my mind lately. What is “normal”, what is “needed” and how to combine these with life as is with its many needs. This article  has been going around on Facebook lately and I found it an interesting informative read and honestly a bit of a relief.

Before having children my sleep pattern was jumbled due to freedom of choise. In my travels I was ever so exited to discover siesta as a norm. In Spain everything  literally shut down the hottest hours of the day, the shutters shut and later the streets and cafe’s are bustling tills late as people break up their needed rest into a few hearty chunks and now have energy these late hours. So much fun.

After having children it was the night feeding that woke me  on a regular basis. Then I have chosen to have night work a few times a week. When the kids at last slept through the night I sometimes had the need to just shake things up and stay up all night in creative pursuits or to gather with friends or to dance. To feed the soul at this soulful time.  Latest it is the 6 puppies that wake me with various needs at least once a night.  Broken night sleep seem to just be part of my life.  Naps are some of the most nurturing times for me and I adore when I am able to give myself this gift of time to quiet down in the middle of the day. Ahhhhh.

I know that  lack of sleep can make me ill, not to mention make me feel crazy. Too much sleep makes me feel sluggish and depressed (but it is a rare “luxury”). That said I realised with the little ones that the expectation of so and so many hours of uninterrupted sleep is the biggest issue for me. Then I resist the awakening  and get agitated and irritated when I am “needed”  at random hours. Argh!!  The irritation only adds to the stress and then I have a hard time falling back to sleep. If I am able to awake with acceptance, assured I will be able to go back to bed I am relaxed and then I actually do fall back to sleep much easier sometimes with the bonus of some great thoughts or realisations that I carry with me into the next sleep ( and if I am really lucky into the next morning) or the privilege of a moment noticing the sky or the scent at a time of the day that I otherwise would not have experienced. Adding to life , making it richer  for me.

I am a very light sleeper and in sharing life and home with other families and animals I get woken up on random times for random reasons all the time .  Obviously am not always thrilled about the interruption but I do my best to use it as an opportunity for awareness practice. To take note more than having a judgement around the awakening .  Sometimes I have to tend to the situation ( my children , my animals, someone checking in, emergencies etc).  Just as  often it is not my responsibility and I can merely notice … footsteps ( human, cat  or dog) , someone flushing the toilet, door opened and then closed, children laughing, child screaming, cat playing with toy, dog  jumping of the sofa, laundry started and so on. I attempt to relax in to taking note and letting it go rather than forming an opinion.

This is  a practice with which I attempt to meet life in general and obviously … I forget,get caught up in judging , opinions, expectations all the time often even without noticing.  Hence it is truly a practice. When I do let go though the reward is  much softening, continued rest and less stress and not to mention toxic moods and an expanding sense of freedom.

Night-time dreams , visions and thoughts tell me much about my self and life that I otherwise may have  missed.

What is you sleeping patterns and your thoughts around it?  Do you sleep enough , too much ? Do you worry about waking up  not able to get back to sleep and then experience just this. Could you se this awaking time as a blessing to tap into in place of a curse to cure? What practices could you do at this extra  time you are given that are beneficial to you. Do you allow your self the freedom to follow your natural impulse of rest when it come upon you? Does your lifestyle permit this? Is your diet ( includinc liquids ) and habits supportive or destructive to you resting patterns? Is there any minor adjustments that can be made if only even in attitude that may bring you closer to your natural resting needs?

I am curious to hear your thoughts …

Sleep as so many aspects of our life is not a one size fits all. We all have individual needs and these change with circumstances and seasons like everything else.  They may go unnoticed if we do not take a moment to reflect.  Can we become friends with sleep and rest and listen to our selves and our bodies and as much as possible take heed to what we hear and see what emerge as we do so.

Could it be that the  power available to us is proportional to our ability to rest and let go?

( I read something along these lines somewhere but can not remember who the quote is from..let me know if you know).

I think it may have some truth to it.

Confessions of a “type B”

For years I thought myself a “failure” in the “yogic ways” since I just simply could not consistently get my self disciplined to get up  before I had to get up to what needs to get done and practice yoga. (At the break of dawn or even earlier).  I even belittled my after-noon or evening sessions as  real “yogini” “do” it in the morning.  I am the kind of person some may think of as being incredibly organized  when they see me preparing lunches for my children most evenings. I even kinda plan kids clothing for the coming day and more if I have it in me.  Little would you know that this is due to me not functioning well in the morning if I do not prep as much as possible the night before. Not that I can not perform all this in the morning. I just get so darn cranky if I have to rush and at the same time be present to my loved ones and I usually forget one essential item for at least one of us . Slow and mellow is the best way to start the day for me.  My children have for the most part accepted this and behave accordingly.

It is not like I do not love the morning and dawn. It is an incredible time of day and there is something awesome about being up before the first birds stir. The sounds , the smells. I do love it! I cherish the mornings this happen.  Wether it is because I just woke up or because I stayed up all night. The point is I can’t seem to ( or want to ) maintain it on an everyday basis. I thrive with a changing schedule. I love staying up late, I love sleeping in.  ..dusk is a potent time a day as well and midnight and beyond … ahhhhh. In the depth of night I source so much love and I project it far and wide. I do most of my practice after the children are in bed and often end up later than I “should” as everyday life, work and getting the children ready for school require getting up in the morning.  I love working nights ( as long as it is not too often). It gives me permission to nap throughout the week so I catch up on lost sleep. Naps are divine-potent-power-loving-nurturing times for me. 

I am easy to wake and I get back to sleep easy.

( Can you tell 9-5 is not my ideal scenario?)

This weekend though. March blessed us with a weekend of incredible weather. Sun-sunny skies and it already shows that the days are longer . The added hours of light makes a difference. I woke up with the sun on my face . No need to get up as it was weekend and the children tend to mind their own for a little while in the morning. The joys of them growing up a bit. I did just curl over with a smile to snooze a little longer.  Ahhh to wake up slowly. Then with a jolt I just had to get out of bed as I knew the sun was shining on the deck. I could smell that is was warm out . You know that smell?  The scent of one of the first warm spring days. One of the most bliss full things I know of is to  is being able to do yoga in the morning sun best of all on a beach. A deck or on the grass facing the sun will do too.  Before it gets to warm to be in the sun . Ahhh. My roommate was already out there doing her practice. So there we were . Stretching and breathing. Sun on skin. Birds chirping and Eagles calling.  Blue blue sky. Bliss!  More days like this and I’ll be up earlier much more often. I wont force it. I want to get up because of the sheer joy of it because that drive to get up is just the best ever feeling. I imagine it can potentially catch on as I get in the habit and I realise how awesome I feel in my body starting the day like this on a more regular basis.

We will see.

Our deck and land sure invites to doing yoga facing sunrise.

 Over the years . I have learned to honor and accept that I just do not necessarily practice the first thing in the morning , every morning.

Much of my practice is non physical and in being as much as possible present in whatever I am doing when-ever I am doing it. Doing dishes mind fully , being online mind fully, being present when I communicate  with the children , fully present ( I really do practice). I attempt to say yes when I mean it and “let me think about it” when I am not sure . Feel the earth as I walk on it. The air as I breathe it. Returning to what my breath have to tell me as often as I can. Releasing tension as often as I sense it. Counter-act every contraction with a deep breath of release and softening in my whole being. Even rest and be tired mind fully.

My physical prime time to stretch , go for hikes, swim, do yoga and such seem to be some time after noon before dinner time and after the children are in bed.

Over the years of traveling, public transport and the like I have learned that these moments in transition , waiting, en route , in line , these in-between times are precious opportunities to meditate, breathe, visualize,reflect.  Practice subtle pelvic excesses or not so subtle stretching and strengthening poses. These in-between moments  have added hours and hours of time towards my physical and mental health.

In place of allowing my inner bossy-pants put me down for  what I am not accomplishing I am noting with joy when I take time to do what my body and mind needs to stay tuned nourished and well and grounded. 

I recommend it. Take note of all the good you do for your self. Take note if you do not do what nourish you, your soul and your body.  What can you do? Honor your own rhythm. Yes …discipline is invaluable. Stoking the fire is good. Regular practice is really useful for most of us. Often mixing it up once in a while makes life richer.  Love yourself along the way. Give yourself permission to follow your own rhythm.  Make smaller commitments if it mean that you will do it. What is YOUR preference?  When is it realistic for YOU to commit to in taking care of your body and mind?  Do this.  Enjoy this. Pause sometimes in you practice just to notice.  Do less, allow more.  Then try the opposite. How does that feel.  Try something new.  Seek out company that inspires. Trust your self  to experienced hands and get bodywork, epicures, facial, acupuncture. Source from within. Drink more water. Breathe deeply and notice all the beauty around you. What ever we do for our health is meant to be fun and make us feel better. Sweat and sore muscles feel good. So does hushed rooms and scented baths. 

You deserve it!

Teach your loved ones to practice self-care by example.

Celebrate being you. I know I for one just feel so much better when I stop comparing my practice to others and deeply honor my own pace. Strangely enough I find myself actually getting up more often even just for a mini stretch or a few minutes of breathing exercise before rushing into the day. I stopped negating my evening practices and fully savor those times.

On that note …it is 1230 am and I will go stretch a bit. I am sore after all the gardening this weekend.

Blessed spring to you all

The Pulse of Life

This last week I have acutely felt the pull of two seemingly opposing calls.

I have come to recognize them as the yearning of the soul and the yearning of the Spirit.  So different in character. The pull in opposite directions.

The inward creative pull of “let me just finnish that Collage in peace”. Do not interrupt me. Let me dream and let the unconscious roam free to sort itself out. A complete absence of desire to fulfill household or professional obligations , you get the drift….

On the other hand I am restless and stressed and anxious to burst forward in the garden. (In fact I have visions of the garden 5 or 10 years from now.) Burst forward in my professional life. In my personal life. In life in general. Incredibly impatient that I am not moving forward fast enough with the studio so I can start receiving clients. I wanna  travel. Make a difference. Make lots of money. Do more. Be more. Cultivate a strong and vigorous practice to raise my fire and purifie and be clear and vast as the sky.

The Dance of Shiva and Shakti.

Or rather the pulse. I contract. I expand. I exhale.  I inhale.

In true pisces manner I acutely feel the pull in both directions simultaneously.

I need both and the season is such. Light is bursting forth. Flowers push through the ground and blossom. Dogs are in heat. The sun is warm. Hummingbirds dance in mating ecstasy.

Yet it is the earliest blossoms. The warm days take turn with the cold. Soo much is still hibernating and incubating. It is early spring!

In the middle of these pulls of the downward and upward I live Life Manifested.

What practices will nurture and ground me and simultaneously help me rise with the energies and go forth in the world bringing into light that which is what I have to share with the world.

I power nurture when I can . Naps are sacred for me. It is no lie. I love naps and they are one of the most luxurious gift I give and allow myself in this busy life. It is pure self love. Luxurious baths that include face masks. Followed by rich oils and luxurious scents. Permission to sit with emotions and let things percolate before acting or reacting. I rest in nature. I walk slowly. I savour. I Sit

To honor the call of the spirit I Vision. I Dream and Fantasize and feel into what really tick my heart and this is the gage by which i choose direction. I climb high to get a view. I move faster so my breath deepens and joy bursts through my veins.I sing.

I practice yoga curling up into a ball and the stretching  as far as I can. Furling and curling and reaching and stretching. Closing and opening.

Inhaling and exhaling.

I enact the pulse to experience the comfort and acceptance in all the places of this sacred dance.

Or notice the disomfort and play with it.


 Somewhere between the soul and the spirit is life as is, Mateialised. I have the privilige to be here on earth. In this body. Bound somewhat by time and space.

I commit to use the nourishment I draw from the depth of my soul and the clarity and vision I source from my spirit and do always something, every moment that bring into being that which is most me. That which is my gift to the world.

It is so damn intimidating as my visions are vast and bold and simultaneously so very ordinary.

I have no meassure but my own to what is enough or …not.

There are days where it seem I do so little because I am just going about being me doing what needs to be done. There are even days it seem I spend more and more time undoing than doing ( but that is a whole nother story) .

That is just it. Of course it is enough! It is enough to be ourselves to the extent that we are able to be at any given time. If we allow ourselves to delve into the depths of the soul. Explore the visions of the spirit. Commit to doing what we can to work towards bringing this into manifestation. Then we are doing  precisely what we are ment to. What else can we do or be.

So in the midst of this dance of life …where ever we are at. Let us trust that it is all right. That inhale will follow exhale untill it does not anymore. Let us not waste any time or energy trying to be anything we are not. Rest deep into the knowing and allowing that we are enough. Even let go of the notion that we today should be like yesterday or even like just a moment ago. Discovering every moment Who am I.

Inhale. What are my needs. What am I wiling to receive from the world.

Exhale. What can I release. What is my gift to this moment.

Lets journey together into this space of ever unfolding self discovery.

By the mere fact of being we are bringing an expression to the world that otherwise would be lost. At times this will be in an active expression as us Doing in the world. At others it is in the mere Being in the world. One is not more worthy than the other. Only we each will know when it is time for one or the other.  Trust this knowing. Stay close to your selves and take pleasure in this guidance. Be the most yourself you can possible be.


This is your gift

(By the way  I adore the Dance in Guidance)

Lets Dance …if nothing else …lets just Dance.